An excerpt from “Conversations with G – A Physician’s Encounter with Heaven“
In December 1984 a new phase developed in my dance with the divine. For some time I had been musing on the idea that we all have a personal angel. One night I awoke at midnight totally wired and could not go back to sleep. Suddenly I began hearing voices, 14 of them. I went to my desk and for over an hour I received moderately jumbled but clear, audible to me, voices, confusing because of the cacophony of voices. One, however was crystal clear, Murielle, my personal angel. There was no special message just an acknowledgment. I gleaned to some extent that her purpose is to help reinforce clear cut moral standards and occasional warnings if I get too Sagittarian risk taking.
Within six months I met another guide, who introduced himself to me as my teacher. I call him G for guide. It is a masculine voice. I think the most startling conversation we ever had was about sin. According to him, the only sin in the eyes of the Universe (his name for God) is murder, either of another person or of self-suicide! He does not consider abortion murder! I have hundreds of pages of transcripts from our conversations where I make my non-conventional shorthand scribbles of points and then dictate the fullest version I can create. Many of these will be used in subsequent chapters. I have had a number of conversations in which he makes it clear to me that throughout my life many of my innovative ideas are messages he gave or sent to me. In other words I am the receiver. The actual message sometimes is quite detailed and more often just the main symbol or concept which I need to develop.
In one of my earliest conversations with G, I asked G “Is it proper to ask how you are?” He replied “I am always fine”. He went on to say that he would continue to evolve and that a time would come when he would no longer be associated with the earth’s school of evolution. He stated that angels do not have emotions in the sense that humans do. He said he has a sense of “cosmic harmony”, an awareness that is transcendent of personal emotions. He went on to say that in my childhood, I did not like feeling vulnerable (remember my reaction to my sister’s feeling of abandonment), so I became hyper-responsible and blocked “lesser emotions”. By lesser emotions, he meant frightened and insecure. “By age 8 or 9 you had a level of control over that part of you, and you felt impatient with those types of emotion”. ‘It is not that you have transcended them. You simply have barricaded them”. You become angry when someone needy wants your approval. Note how much power you have in controlling your approval”. I noted that I feel drained by needy people. He suggested that I should learn to “vibrate your approval of people just the way they are. When you disapprove, it attracts them to you; instead vibrate approval”. ‘Recognize that they are doing the best that they can, given their state of evolution.
Vibrate acceptance of where they are in their state of evolution”. “And each morning bless them without judgment. This will lead to rapid growth. We then went on to discuss the book Carline and I were beginning, THE CREATION of HEALTH.” I asked him for a dramatic beginning He said “be direct. Start with The human spirit is real. There comes a time and moment when the debates and proof are set aside and one simply takes the belief and faith that the universe is an alive force field of spiritual and physical life”. I then asked for some help on the subject of sexuality and hypocrisy. He replied “Stress is by far largely associated with males. This is why they have a higher incidence of heart attacks. Why is it such a strong current? Is it possible to challenge the sexual association of the male and to challenge their being controlled by their genitals? From day one men are forced to mature in certain ways and to be suspicious of touch except through sports or with women. The point is that sexual energy, sexual competition is a significant stress which has a great influence on health emotionally, psychologically and physically”. I then asked him whether there was a way I could get by with less than my required 8 hours of sleep. He replied “not for you. You need a great deal of regenerating equal to the amount of energy you put out during the day. You need the intuit dream space. Your rational brain needs time off”.
As you can see, to a great extent, G has been my spiritual guide. Indeed, just as with my Scout master James Sheeley, and my mentor Talmage Peele, I have been blessed to have Henry Rucker, Bob Leichtman, and Caroline Myss as major personal counselors. G has been to me my closest spiritual counselor. Interestingly most of my conversations with Muriel have taken place when I am outside walking or jogging, so that I have not had the opportunity to take notes. Even with G, my notes have to be cryptic and my own brand of shorthand.
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